Seems like the past is back to plague me. Within a week, i've gotten 3 pieces of news regarding people from my past. And not good things to boot.

Apparently, John finds what has happened to Joshua (Lee) amusing and cant wait to share all the scandalous details next time we meet for supper.

CheeKian turns out to be some rather big army guy in Jo's camp - and is currently telling him untruths about me.

And another fella. Whom i wont want to mention is trying to squeeze back into my already messed up and complicated life.

And church. I really need to set out on a quest for new one. I used to wonder what people mean when they say "things/people hurt them" and hence led to them having bad impressions. But thank God, despite it all, i've also met people who have shown me and gave me a reason to believe otherwise. Hence, it didnt really hurt that much after all, still, it's all relative.

Then again, while i think life a few years ago seems more complicated. Maybe it's just that i'm sick of playing all these mindless charades. I think the years in JC has led me to become more passive-aggressive. Not something i like, but perhaps might not be such a bad thing after all - if it's taken in small dosages.

I miss the girlfriends. I miss Andrew, Eugene and Lyon. Sometimes, i suspect that if not because i stay in hall, i really might not even see a single soul from out of school till term break. S08, must have a gathering then ya.